The Gray Report

Saying things you’d normally wouldn’t so as to fit in and stay unnoticed in a group. Leading a group in a direction you normally wouldn’t because everyone else appears to believe in the direction you are leading them. Appearing to believe in the direction you are being led in though you would never actually admit you agreed with it.

It is that time of day when the house is quiet, the table is half covered in pots, pans, and tuber ware with food scattered across. The car isn’t in the garage and the dog lies sleeping on the blue blanket. The sun lies somewhere back there, behind the cloud over those mountains. It makes some nice gold colors on the rocky face of the mountains outside of the window. I guess it is so nice because at this time of year there is a lot of plants and flowers in the back yard so the gold makes it seem sort of dreamlike. Yeah, I’ll do em I guess. Call it being nice or being bored. Does it matter? Approaching the sink I am nipped by the denting smell. The eggshells, scraps of mango, carrot peel, and chunks of tofu drip in my fingers. Oh yes, the trash is under the sink these days. Drip once, drip twice on the floor. The water in the frying pan trembles, shaking the crusty flakes of burnt egg. Yogurt and peanu

I have established the fact that I am addicted to Lost . Using the phrase "addicted" is actually pretty serious when viewed in the context of the Church and in what that word's meaning has done to people. I recall experiences from the mission, literature, newspapers, general conference reports, and other things that clearly illuminate the negative nature of addiction. So what is it that is so addictive? Well the obvious is that each episode ends in such a way that one is left hanging in the most dramatic way. With technology these days (like my beloved Netflix account) one doesn't need to wait for the next episode but can merely click a button for the next while rapidly justifying the time it will take to see "just one more." As I have thought about why I am drawn to the TV series beyond the basic fact of its natural suspense, I have not fully arrived at a conclusion of deeper power within. However, there are a few things that present themselves as key indi

LDS.org - New Era Article - Seven Myths about Careers I think the main thing I am up against as I am continually striving to gain direction is I just need to "know myself." I need to just go full throttle and continue to evaluate how I feel about things and how it is effecting me. I like this article in that the focus is finding what works, whether you find it in College or if you find it after changing careers for many years.